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i can't see myself in ten years doing some kind of job that is just okay, earning my own money, living in some big city, having a family and probably children, loving my husband, being just fine. it ain't right because now that i have lost you i just feel empty and useless as if i was a half of person trying to stick the bad other half on her side. i know that something went wrong and we won't ever fix it; i'm just so angry because i can't forgive you cause you didn't even apologize properly. everytime i go back home i just hope you will be sitting in the corridor and tell me how much you're sorry. but you probably hate me. and you've never loved me as much as i love you.
