... so that you won't be able to say that i didn't do everything to keep us together.
Dating two boys was the most awful experience i had in a relationship. I wish you could know what kind of pain i'm feeling now.
I felt so guilty that i didn't do what i like to do with A. He didn't even know me at all.
He's not aware of what i did.
But the fact that i've been busy talking to you and trying to keep you close because i thought we were back together, well i guess i can only put the blame on me right now, if it still hurts.
I fell in love with him but he didn't love me back, how could he? I was so cold and mean to him.
Because i knew i had a choice to make, and i choosed you. You can't date two boys and love them in two different ways and stay the same person to them. I thought that you would give me the same things as him. That you would hold my hand and tell me not to worry and that you were here for me if i needed you.
Because this is what he did when i felt bad. And these little attentions mean so much to me.
Because i am fucked up and i have mental issues you can't even imagine.
How come i always take the wrong decisions? I think it's because you're still around.
This breakup will stay the worst ever- and i don't heal at all -and i won't forgive you-
I can't even stay alone at home, and i can't sleep
you can't help anyone, only make things go worse and worse and leave like a fucking coward
i hate you.
